I feel ashame to tell u all that this blog I had been created for long time ago...
but never have a chance to update...(actually is because of my laziness, ^^")...
Actually I have nothing to update but i cant sleep at this time (u can look at what time when i post this)..
So try to update my blog after saw my babe's blog,
I think it is time to start writting my own blog,
So that she can know what Im doing recently and keep in touch..
I just going celebration for my Dearest Laura for her 21st birthday....
At here i greet her happy birthday, happy always be with her bf and get her freedoom soon...
Even I know she is unhappy since certain things had happened...
But I do wish her can be cheered up since got all of us accompany u!! ^^
After the celebration, something had happened when I reach my home....
My dearest darling told me that the handphone that I present to him when his birthday..
Already lost when he playing basketball!!!WTF!!!Damn the theif!! I feel very pain and very angry....
Somehow I already abit drunk that time...and I scold him...and because of that we argue again...I know I should convince him but don't know why I will behave like that....
I already promise myself no to behave like that again..
But I can't make it at that moment..
Don't know why I just can't cool down myself....and both of us get hurt....
Im very hate to myself that always do something stupid....
I know because of this behavouir make me lost many things...my family, my friends and also my most dearest....
Who can help me??I really don't want to be like this anymore...
I really hate myself....I already try to control myself...
I hate myself be like this.....><
